Another Initiation of Growth

The first time I saw you speak
I heard your growl
The passion and fire in your voice
My eyes glittered
My body rejoiced
Had never seen such strength before
The power you brought
I wanted more
Now I see it was all a dream
Like the rest of this illusion
Nothing is what it may seem
Everything's fallen into utter turmoil
It makes me sick enough for my stomach to coil

I fell out of bed
On top of my head
And once I stood up, I started to see red
The gash I received was deep
It bled and it bled
I proceeded to stop the bleeding but I received other gashes instead

The biggest gash though, I received in my heart
I felt the entire realm was trying to keep us apart
But the first hedge put up had already been put there by you
I realized your insecurities, as the more shit you allowed me to be put through

You were the ringleader of this circus of deceit
You and the other animals wanted to bring me to defeat
But as I cried and wanted to lay it down
Mother came to my rescue and picked me up from the ground
She let me cry on her shoulder
She told me to purge
She said "Go ahead baby. Let it all out. I know that it hurts to see them all for what they're really about."

I took a second look at the faces of "so called" comrades and friends
But this time, I saw demons and devils that made me cringe
I felt their insecurities, doubts, jealousies and hates
Things that were at first veiled over
The hidden rivalries that started to disseminate
They slandered, attacked, smeared, smudged
They had nerve to say it was in the name of unity
Dared to say it was in the name of love

Can you see their hypocrisy?
Can you see their disgusting lusts for the taste of my blood?
All because I took a stand for the Goddess in me
For the god and goddess that I mistakenly thought was in them
For the God that I thought was in men
For the Goddess in who I thought were these women

These in fact were those who chose the lower half
Who desired the base things
Who chose the crooked paths
They couldn't handle my strength
They shunned me for my Divine desires
The want of something better
The true spirits and souls that would take me higher

I definitely learned that misery hunts for its company
Devours alive those wanting to fly
I pity those lower entities but at the same time, I know they must die
So that there can be a chance for those who choose to do right
So that all that are chosen can arise and take flight
The pain, hurt and deceit further opened all three of my eyes

Another initiation
Into my complete and spiritual rise

Write/Right

Write bcuz it soothes the soul
Write bcuz u have a pen
Write 2 express, 2 teach, 2 learn
Write 2 invite others n
Write bcuz it reveals the wrongs of society & the world
Write bcuz u have the right
Write 2 carry on

It Fails

Love in a lesser form will ask you to hold its breath
Its not strong enough to survive with the fragments it has left
It fails to live up to its name
It has little passion and its rather tame
It returns quickly from which it came

It's a shattered dream, in a deserted pond
It's a legacy that failed to carry on
It returns quickly from which it came
It fails to live up to its name

ReGrowth

I had to make a choice
Probably the hardest ever made
I had to allow the sun to shine and come out from among the shade
I had to let the sun's rays warm my heart and bring back the life I lost long ago
Lost to the darkness of the night

I had to start the process and let the rain flow down on me

             That my soil could be nourished
My flower could bud and blossom maturely

It had to happen
I had to grow
I had to release the shame and that's the way
That I grew beauty, from my pain

Their Imagined Sleights/Ego Ramifications

NEVER let the negativities of others pull you down

NEVER let their psychosis become yours
NEVER listen to those who only have bad things to say
You can find better things to do, any given day
If you look at the past of those who have elected themselves as your foes
You most likely will uncover hurts and pains that they'd prefer you never know
Whether they were the hurter or the hurtee
They've learned to be Great actors but the truth has a way of rising above masks
Evidence that their are many who need deep healing
Just go to the Divine
Drop your plastic egos and just do it
God can be Good
When you realize IT can possibly be YOU
~~~The Divine Source~~~

Illusions

They are clouding your better judgment
They are blocking you from the God Source
Disconnecting you from the Divine
They are smothering your heart
You are the ones
Who are truly dying

Intimidation

You try
So you lie
Use harsh words with sick tones
When all along
You're the one who's truly alone
The sickness inside
You cannot hide
You are the one
Who's truly intimidated

Did You Know.....

There was a slave ship called Grayhound that was owned by a spanish jew by the name of aaron lopez who jointly owned this brigantine (ship) with another spanish jew, jacob rodriguez rivera, in 1761?

Makes you wonder, huh? Especially since Amerikkka was (and still is) built upon slavery and has GREATLY prospered because of its evils, blood , sweat, tears and lost lives and still riding off of its hard, thankless work??? By the way, look at the shape of the ship in the "plans" blueprint and then notice the similar shape at the top of the bus...

M.C. Levy of Charleston , South Carolina had more than twenty African hostages (pg. 182 of The Secret Relationship Between Blacks and jews).
                        

                 

 A slave auction in Christiansburg, Virginia 1850 with the "master of ceremonies" auctioning off slaves.

                       

edwin "McMasters" stanton secretary of war

MC

Short for *master of ceremonies or mic *controller. Essentially a word for a rapper but the term is not limited to hip hop. Drum and Bass, Garage, Happy Hardcore, Ragga and old school rave all feature MCs, however with these genres, the MC generally MCs live while a DJ mixes the tunes, whereas hip hop MCs mainly do so on record

*Navigator is a wicked MC
Biggie was a phat MC

I'm MCing at a house party tonight, you coming?

Makes you wonder about a lot of the terms we use today and where they originate from, huh? Especially considering that the music industry, hip hop and its artists in particular are owned and controlled by jews (hat hop as it is referred to in Irritated Genie of Soufeese' book War on the Horizon, where by the way, I first learned of the book The Secret Relationship Between the Blacks and the jews) and the fact that the jews had a major economic, financial, physical and political hand in the slave trade.

Question EVERYTHING

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Message to the Khamites, Ta Muurians, Africans and Blacks

This is a post I came across on another site that I found interesting and decided to repost and share.

RAS AZANIA
Let's not be pawns of our enemies. We don't have no friends outside our race


Quote Originally Posted by RAS AZANIA View Post


My first allegiance is to my Black family, Black community, Black nation and to my Divine Black Supreme Being. I don't identify myself with my oppressors, both arabs and europeans. My sympathy goes to my million Black bodies and souls which are under the domination and exploitation of arab and european colonialists all over the world, who are whipped and enslaved almost everyday by these people, enemies of the Black race who don't care and respect our Black being. Arabs and europeans have proven to be our enemies for more than 1500 years. Arabs have colonized, enslaved and killed many of our people in North Afrika and they are still killing us in Sudan, Mauritania, Kemit, Libya, Niger, Tunisia, Algeria yet the arab world and so called arab nationalists and revolutionaries are quiet about the Black Holocaust. Actually these people directly or indirectly benefit from our destruction economically, socially and politically. I never saw any palestinian or any other oppressed arabs in the arab world identifying themselves with the Black people in Sudan who are under siege from arab expansionists who perpetuate the dehumanization of Afrikan people and destruction of our Black civilization. I never saw any arab nationalist identifying themselves with the indigenous people Kemit the Black Nubians who are under the alien domination by arab colonial settlers. Beside rhetoric identification with all oppressed and colonized people all over the world, but they never fought their own arab brothers who are colonial settlers in Afrika, raping, killing, dispossessing, enslaving Black people for their arab white supremacist interests. That's hypocrisy. I find it strange that oppressed Black people who are ignorant of the atrocities caused by arabs colonial settlers in Afrika, people who never campaign against these dirty and filthy racist arabs colonial settlers in Afrika who are enslaving and committing genocide and destruction of our Divine Black family, have a nerve to identify themselves with arabs in colonial palestine in their imperialist gangsta war againts white supremacist imperialist israel in North East Afrika, a land belonging to Black people who are oppressed and dispossessed by both arabs and ashkenazi european israel. What about Black people who are the real owners of that land and the most oppressed and dehumanized by the palestinians and by the jews? Are we so desperate for friends, where we even seek them in the enemy camp, people who don't care about our plight and destitute? We are so sheepishly mislead to fight our enemies struggles and wars while we continue to ignore and remain silent of the genocide caused by arabs and european colonialists in their well calculated plan to destroy our Black family in the Black world. Palestinian struggle is for palestinians and their arab colonial people. I choose and take no side when the enemies of Black people fight against each other in the land of Black people to take control of the stolen resource which belongs to Black people at the expense of our own Black interests. We have no friends outside our Race. All other nations operate to advance and preserve their own interests by any means necessary. We can't allow ourselves to be pawns used to fight the imperialist wars of our natural enemies. Let them destroy and kill each other so that we can repossess our land which belongs to us, but was taken away from our ankhcestors through genocide and extermination by these dirty and filthy racist arabs and european colonial settlers in North East Afrika. Afrika for the Afrikans!

Emotional Manipulation and Abuse Along With Selective Memory and Reasoning

Emotional blackmail: Using another's feelings for you or something else they like, love or care for against them. Usually the offender will do something wrong and then to release themselves from blame or responsibility of their wrongful actions or behaviors, they'll flip the script and make the victim feel guilty, as though they were the original perpertrator of the wrongdoings. 

The true offender may feign hurt feelings and come up with faulty or false accusations as part of the manipulative/abusive behavior (emotional blackmail/abuse). The blackmailer may also do this to accomplish a desired result that will self servingly work out on their behalf or to attain/receive something (physical or otherwise) that they desire. Also, this may be done in order for someone to get their way and/or to fulfill a motive or agenda which are usually based on the behaviors spoken of below (Note: The following also shortly explains selective memory and reasoning): 

Seeing things within a biased/prejudiced scope. Conveniently, the offender/perpertrator only remembering when someone has wronged or upset them (usually imaginary or created sleights) or only remembering someone else's sleight infractions but the true offender always conveniently forgetting their own shortcomings or infractions against others.

If they do happen to admit to wrongdoings, they usually make excuses for them or tell the victims it was their fault or something they supposedly did or said that set off the offender's outburst or attacks. They usually don't take responsibility for their own actions/reactions. These people reason out bad behaviors or habits to suit their vices, selfishness, self serving agendas, lusts, desires,etc. These types are irresponsible, immature, untrustworthy and usually have a history of shaky relationships, friendships, and possible broken family ties. At their very worst, they may be unpredictable and violent. 

If you notice these patterns in someone you are personally dealing with (relationship or otherwise) you may want to rethink your associations with such ones, especially if you have made them aware of their behavior and yet, they refuse to change. You might want to consider moving on. At the least, relations with one such offender may result in effects that may take years to reverse or heal from. At the most serious, lifelong irreversible damage.

Wisdom: Never love another more than you love yourself, for loving self IS the love of others.

Modern Day Slaves

We thought when the chains, the whips and hanging ropes were outlawed that we were                                 finally  free
But if you look closely and study the scene
                      You'll see, as I see
           There's a Modern Day Slavery

  

             
                                                  A lot of us are still struggling

No matter how many of us have succeeded
              As some will try to explain

                                                                 
                                                       
                                                   We're still hurting and oppressed                                                                          Within our minds
As we're separated and picked among by                        wolves in sheep's clothing    

                    
                    
             Pretending they're on our sides

Don't be fooled by these things that "turn into light"
Then they unclothe and reveal themselves                      in the dark of the night

          If you allow yourself to be lax and                             your armor's incomplete
         You're setting yourself up to be eaten
           Your heart and mind they'll deplete

                   
                          
Once you are drained of all hope to carry on
           They'll abandon you like waste
        Quickly moving on to the next victim

                         You stand erect
Heal and return to the strength that will          restore your nation, hope and joy
That goes for you Black woman, man, girl                                 and boy
For we are a mountain and we shall  NOT                               be moved